The onset of the new year always makes me nostalgic. I think about fond memories of the past year, and the past in general. And then I think about the future. I think about all the good things that are in store for me. and sometimes the thoughts about the past, the present and the future all sort of blend together.
A few weeks ago, we ordered Chinese take out. For the most part, NYC restaurants go longer send fortune cookies and Chinese noodles with the food. We’re more “elevated” here, or cost conscious, or “cheap” to do that. But one neighborhood place still sends out the cookies along with the wonton soup and fried veggie dumplings.
“Reconcile with an old friend. All has been forgotten.”
That’s what the fortune said. I placed it on my magnet board, because oddly, I’ve been thinking about an old friend. I considered reaching out to this old friend, right around the time I got the fortune. Weird, right? Is it a sign? Or am I just trying to make it a sign?
I’m not one to hold grudges- I think that life is too short. I don’t like being at odds with people- I think it is a waste of energy that should be used positively instead of negatively. It takes the same amount of energy to be happy as it does to be mad. These are not some sort of fortune cookie wisdom- these are my own personal mantras. These are things I try to live and practice. And to be fair, I probably did once see them on a fortune cookie.
But back to the actual situation. I had a falling out with a friend a few years ago. To be clear- both of us were wrong and both of us were right. It was a pretty evenly sided falling out. But I miss talking to this person because they are smart and funny. And a whole bunch of other things, but we will leave it at, their absence in my life is felt.
So now, do i reach out to this person? According to the fortune cookie, they are ready to make amends. But, are they? I might need to get an order of wonton soup just to get a fortune. (Actually, I’ll need to order two things because I need two fortunes cookies- if I only get one I will just give it to my daughter, and I will be fortuneless)
Are some things better left alone? Are some friendships meant to die out? These are going to be thoughts for the upcoming year- be prepared for some blogs about them.
Happy New Year!!!