When I wrote my 2017 wrap up post, i was surprised at the number of comments made regarding my positive outlook on the past year.  This was funny to me, because I am not really a positive person- I’m actually rather cynical about life.  But the comments got me thinking, and maybe my innate cynicism actually makes me more positive.

Ok- here me out.  I go through my days, and my life assuming that nothing will go right.  One of my favorite phrases is ___________ sucks.  Fill in any word- parenting, life, husbands…..I have known to say that something sucks at least once a day.  I always see every bad scenario/possibility.  I prepare for the worst.    I was the Mom at the playground with the huge diaper bag- band aids, extra clothes- everything.  I prepare for the worst in everything.  When you prepare for the worst, maybe you’re setting yourself up to succeed.

Huh?  You say.  What am I talking about?

If you go into something knowing what the pitfalls are, you have planned for them, and they don’t seem so daunting if they occur.  And when nothing bad happens, well, you’re totally elated.  If I make a plan, and all parts of the plan go through seamlessly, I am thrilled.  See, if you are the type of person that think that everything will always go right, when something doesn’t, you’re floored.  You have trouble recouping.  And when something does go right, you’re not excessively happy- because that was your expectation.

I rarely have trouble recouping because I always expect the worst to happen.  I am  Thrilled when something goes right.  What a concept.

But also, as far as being positive- I do try to find the positive in any situation.  Here’s my thought- it takes the same amount of energy to be positive as it does to be negative.  Seriously- think about it.  If it takes the same amount of energy, why wouldn’t I try to think about the good things?  Why would I dwell on the bad?  When I was thinking about the highs and lows of the past year, I couldn’t really remember any lows- I only remembered the good things.  I’m not an ostrich- I know bad things happened- but I chose to accept them, change the things I could, and not constantly rehash.  I tried to make bad things a learning experience and I adapted my behavior accordingly.  If something went wrong, what was bad?  What could I have done better?  Sometimes, things are out of my control.  I accept that as much of a control freak as I am, I know that I can’t be in charge of everything.  Everything will not go my way.  If you really don’t like something, don’t complain.  Complaining is passive.   Actively try to figure out how to make something better.  Take action.  Complaining doesn’t fix things.

So there are my thoughts on positive vs negative.  Being positive is a lot more fun.  And being positive doesn’t mean you’re shallow- it just means you’ve chosen to look at the bright side as much as possible, you’ve made an active choice to look for the good.  For example- I had the chills last night- I really wasn’t feeling well, which carried into this morning with a headache, and I wasn’t able to write early, which is when i like to write.  My schedule is a bit askew.  But, I just rested a bit, tool a Tylenol, and now I’m just trying to get as much done as possible.  It’s not what I wanted to do, but I adjusted and adapted, and I’ll get on with it.  Positively get on with it.


18 thoughts on “Positively Cynical

  1. OMG you just summed up recovery. Like, seriously, what you just wrote encompasses so much of what the 12 steps have taught me.

    * Prepare for the worst, hope for the best.
    * when shit goes to shit, look for what part I played and figure out how to NOT do that again.
    * gratitude lists get me to focus on the positive, on what went right, and what’s good in my life
    * when shit goes to shit, keep putting one foot in front of the other until I can talk to my sponsor/get to a meeting

    I could go on, but why? You already said it so well. I’m cynical as he’ll, I expect the worst always; when it happens, I’m (sorta) prepared and when it doesn’t then life exceeded my expectations 😄

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    1. It’s just taking personal responsibility. I don’t know how many people actually want to do that anymore. It’s easy to blame someone else, but at the end of the day, it’s up to you. But a lot of people, they want the easy way out…blame someone else

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  2. I like this post. I try to be neither positive or negative but take each day as it unfolds. My nature is to be positive and since I plan to keep going forward whatever happens I will handle it then, I won’t worry about it. The doctors told me last year that I would be back on dialysis last August but I’m not. I am glad I didn’t focus on that except in my dreams but I can’t stop that. I keep doing what I can and enjoy what I am able.

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  3. We are so much alike! I have much to say but…maybe I’ll make my own blog post about this topic.

    Seriously, I am so not the ‘fly by the seat of your pants’ type. I can be laid back, but only AFTER I put everything in order, prepare for the worst type of thing.


    For now, I’ll keep reading. Too much stuff going on here to have a moment to myself, much less write about my thoughts. 😉


  4. I wasn’t born a negative person. I was a happy optimist as a little girl but bit by bit life has turned me into a negative thinker. The good news is, I’m aware of it and am working on it. YAY. 🙂

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